09/04/06
dream deferredwhat happens to a dream deferred?
does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
or fester like a sore--
And then run?
does it stink like rotten meat?
or crust and sugar over--
like syrupy sweet?
maybe it just sags
like heavy load.
or does it explode?
|jav| 10:10 PM|
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08/04/06
when i fall asleep later i know i will wake up grinning.
it feels good, really. it feels good to know you have someone who knows what's going on in your life, when everything else seems so dark, bleak and meaningless.
He knows.
it's comforting to know you're not alone anymore. and that you'll always have someone with you when you're scared or lost.
it's reassuring to know everything happens for a reason, that every joy, sadness and disappointment is part of a great plan He has for you.
it feels good to be able to finally find peace.
God bless.
|jav| 1:35 AM|
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06/04/06
Questions
how can you bear it?
how can you continue living with the knowledge that millions out there are suffering in unimaginable ways, together with their families?
how would you know if you're living out your life to the fullest?
why are we stupid flawed mere mortals given enormous task of living? why wouldnt someone dictate the way we live our lives, maybe god, so at the end of it none of us would look back and regret? or look out in the future and cry in despair for all the things we wont live to see?
how can anyone live with so much pain?
is there hope? or are we living in the illusion of hope?
what is god's plan for her?
how can anyone continue with their state of being alive after losing the will to live anymore?
how can we always be reminded and remember the fragility of life? so we wont waste time being angry, being less loving than we can be?
is there life after death? what is heaven like?
will she be happier there? will there be pain still?
what are we here for? how can we continue to dream knowing that our dreams can be snatched away at the snap of fingers? knowing what little control we have over our lives?
|jav| 1:07 AM|
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