29/11/05
on days that begin with cold wet rain and heavy grey clouds, i would lose my usual sunny and optimistic disposition [or at least i like to think that im a cheerful person] and cross over to that dark shadowy side. a painful thought would strike me.

life is lonely.

to this i could attribute to the ominous weather but do dwell on it.

perhaps that's the reason, the one core reason, for the existence of religion. for all of us have a subconscious longing that perhaps us mere mortals are not alone in this world but guided and taken care of by greater immortal beings from the heavens.

we're lured into thinking that the people around us will forever remain around us cos we're too weak and afraid and small to be alone to face something as dauntingly huge and full of uncertainty as life. we're like creatures in the dark, holding onto each other, feeling our way around. occasionally we'll achieve solace from random bursts of light and warmth we're so ever lucky to stumble upon and, to eventually recognise as love, peace and happiness.

but most of the journey is in darkness. you lose some people in it, and you meet others along the way.

it's depressing.

pray for sun for me, my dear friends.


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