30/03/05
i wish i know how to draw. to capture the magical moment of sitting on the beach at night in Tioman, of the moonpath shone on the inky sea, of all the stars that seem to envelope us, mere mortals, while telling tales of their own, of the hypnotising rhythm of the waves.. because man is forgetful, and my memory is getting blurred. because after a long time, after all these time when all you can see are few random stars in the singapore sky, you slowly forget how it was like. and then, soon, you'll be contented just seeing these stars because you've forgotten.

memories are such frail things.
that's why i wish i know how to draw.a picture do paint a thousand words.


|jav| 11:02 PM|

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04/03/05
crap. my life's in deep shit lah.

like, it's 5.05 and im suppose to be slping.damn. living really strange hrs lately.erm. for eg, i can go for a nap all the way to 11, wake up, eat dinner at 12, and do work for the rest of the night. ok, figured out it's not very strange, some pple do that as well, but mum seems to find this a bit disturbing. in another words, im pissing her off already.

crap.

sorry, 'crap' seems to be my fav word of the week. have got this burning desire to take a trunk of books and sun block with me and migrate myself to a tropical island for 2 weeks. waking up to fresh air and mull around all day indoors reading and coming out only in the evening. eat exotic fruits while walking down the beach. the works.

time away from sch, from pple. really, that's how bad this week has been. work, more work- stressy. cant wait for the weekends. but then again, weekends are just extensions of sch wk, time to chiong undone homework business and perf task. speaking of which, im eyeing the geo pt rather suspiciously and will not attempt to look at it until ive collect, more of less, my frayed and fizzing out nerves.

*cries for help*

having said that tho, i do have one thing to look forward to- romeo and juliet this sunday *)


|jav| 5:20 AM|

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01/03/05
dont be fooled
by the bright smiles of hers
by the light hearted steps she takes
by the easy remarks she makes

for you'd never know about the inner fears
she battles with unshed tears

some pple i know do go thru a stage when things are down, everything seems a little grey.bordering depression but not exactly.

my enemy for now: apathy and all this greyness i seem to see everywhere recently.

help.
sometimes i feel that im living in a vacuum. so alone and so trapped. so quiet. [ironic, isnt it? sound can not travel through vacuum.] will someone please help me get out from where im at now?

"jav, snap out of it already."
entries like this should be banned.
sry guys.


|jav| 1:15 AM|

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