25/12/04
things i really want to do at some point of time in my life.
not in order of importance/sequence [anw, pple i know know that im not exactly an orderly person :)]
1)go dancing at open space at the top of esplanade at night in pyjamas [alone/w friend]
2)skinny dipping in the sea [erms.yah.]
3)fall asleep on the beach after watching a beautiful sunset
4)go to every art museum in paris
5)backpacking in europe with platoonmates after a levels
6)travel the world with a camera
7)take up some kind of self-defense thingie [somehow martial arts doesnt sound right]
8)go on expeditions [climb more mountains]
9)get married
10)have babies
11)learn to speak at least 2 other languages besides chi and eng
12)have a day of cooking with a friend
13)and then eat for another whole day after cooking
14)go that night cycling business with muddy and other platoonmates
15)start a cd collection [im so broke buying an authentic cd is not in my league.that's how broke i am.]
16)move out and live alone before getting married [i've even dreamt out my hse already]
17)live in london at some point of time [im intrigued by that city.]
18)bake a gigantic chocolate cake
19)stay up all night to talk on the phone
20)fall in love [erm. but in order to get married i have to fall in love first right? right. see? not in order. dont know what was i thinking. actually thought of getting married before falling in love.]
21)watch 'a walk to remember' with a tub of haagen diaz
22)movie marathon
23)eat chocolate to the point of saying 'no' [or bursting]
24)fly kites [not surprisingly,i've nv flown a kite before.]
25)ride in a hot air balloon and helicopter
26)glide on those wind thingies
27)guitar.play the bleeding guitar.
28)eat in a very expensive restuarant [seems like all the places i eat in now serves in trays. i hate trays. makes me feel like im a prisoner. ya know, the whole tray look with an orange at the side? yah.]
29)find my perfect watch
30)diving
31)have that perfect date
32)remain in touch with platoonmates and still go to their weddings
|jav| 12:15 AM|
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23/12/04
all i want for christmas is you -mariah carey
I dont want a lot for christmas
There’s just one thing I need
I dont care about presents
Underneath the christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for christmas
Is you...
I dont want a lot for christmas
There is just one thing I need
I dont care about presents
Underneath the christmas tree
I dont need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa claus won’t make me happy
With a toy on christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for christmas is you...
You baby
I wont ask for much this christmas
I wont even wish for snow
I’m just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won’t make a list and send it
To the north pole for saint nick
I wont even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
’cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for christmas is you
You...
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children’s
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa wont you bring me the one I really need
Wont you please bring my baby to me
Oh I dont want a lot for christmas
This is all I’m asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for christmas is
You
All I want for christmas is you baby
[repeat]
|jav| 4:00 PM|
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the one special xmas gift i remember receiving was this notebook from my mum when i was in what, p3 maybe. those times when we still believe that santa exists and try not to fall asleep during xmas eve to catch a glimpse of that big red man. i remembered writing what i want for xmas, decorated it beautifully [amazing memory: a glittery star and the works..] and putting it on a chair. the next day mum gave sis and i a notebook which we wanted.
touching isnt it. haha..
i believed mum sneaked a peek at the letter which the both of us had written for santa. :)
another christmas i remembered:
it was then when dad was a taxi driver..mum, sis and i were in the bedroom watching tv when dad came back home after work. he asked us if we wanted a spin at orchard road that night. sis and i were so excited. we just took our little pillows and hopped onto the cab, still in pjs. dad drove down orchard while the 2 of us just stared and stared at the beautiful lights and crowds of pple..
that was my favourite christmas memory :)
merry chirstmas everyone
|jav| 2:30 PM|
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14/12/04
A sleep disorder, in which sufferers unknowingly act out violent nightmares, could be aggravated by chocolate, scientists warn. Rapid eye movement sleep behaviour disorder, or RBD, affects around one in 200 people, mainly men. In RBD, sleepers also thrash about and shout as they dream. But scientists have reassured chocolate and cocoa lovers that there is no evidence linking chocolate to violent sleep patterns in the general population. The phenomenon of chocolate-stimulated RBD has been documented by Robert Vorona of the Sentara Norfolk General Hospital in Norfolk, Virginia. Vorona suggests that the caffeine in chocolate helps to block a natural process called atonia that paralyses people during dreams. That means the sleeper is more free to move.He studied one man who lashed out in his sleep during recurrent nightmares, in which he tried to protect his home against intruders. The outbursts happened whenever he had eaten chocolate biscuits, ice cream or syrup.
Case report
Doctors found the problems had begun after the patient had sustained head injuries in a car accident. But chocolate appeared to make the symptoms much worse. He has been successfully with sedatives, but the man's symptoms recur if he eats chocolate. Dr Vorona said: "Far be it from me to say chocolate caused the problem. All it probably did was exacerbate it. He added: "I admit this is just a case report, but I still think it's interesting." But Maurice Ohayon of the Sleep Disorders Center at Stanford University, California, said there was no evidence linking chocolate to violent sleep patterns in the general population.
He added: "There's no cause for panic or to stop eating good chocolate."
Dr Mark Blagrove, a sleep and dreaming expert from University of Wales, Swansea, told BBC News Online there were various possibilities about how it could be happening. "It could be it's actually acting on the atonia and stopping it. It could be that the caffeine in the chocolate is causing atonia. "Or it's possible that people have more vivid dreams that get acted out."
The report is published in New Scientist, and is due to appear in the journal Sleep Medicine.
Women's craving: Cultural or chemical?
That advice may be hard for women to heed -- especially when premenstrual craving surfaces once a month. Women's bodies scream for chocolate.
But the health-conscious side shifts to high alert, warning of all the fat -- heart-healthy or not -- and sugar.
So what's a woman to do? It may depend on why she has the craving -- whether she'd be answering to the body's physiological or psychological call for chocolate.
By studying women in Spain and in the United States, Debra Zellner, Ph.D., a psychologist and professor at Shippensburg University in Pennsylvania, concluded that women in the U.S. have the craving because they've turned chocolate into a nutritional taboo -- delicious, but loaded with calories and fat. Convinced it's a wicked indulgence, she theorizes, these women tell themselves they shouldn't have it, then wind up falling off the wagon, particularly before they menstruate, when they might be feeling a little low.
"You feel better because you've just treated yourself to something, but there's no physiological reason," says Zellner, who found that Spanish women simply didn't crave chocolate as much as women in the United States.
Zellner may face opposition when she presents her findings this summer at the annual meeting of the Society for the Study of Ingestive Behaviors in Dublin, Ireland. Numerous studies and papers have been published on the attraction to chocolate, and some scientists are convinced a physiological connection exists. More than 400 chemicals have been identified in chocolate, some of which could affect mood. Zellner says she thinks any pharmacologically active chemicals in chocolate occur in amounts too small to have an impact, but others aren't so sure.
Debra Waterhouse, a registered dietitian and the author of the 1999 book "Why Women Need Chocolate," thinks both culture and chemicals come into play. Chemicals in chocolate affect levels of the body's mood-affecting chemicals, including serotonin, endorphins and phenylethylamine, which the body releases in response to romance, Waterhouse says.
A comprehensive review of chocolate research, published in the October 1999 Journal of the American Dietetic Association, came to the same conclusion. Two nutritionists at the University of Arizona in Tucson examined almost 75 research papers published over the past two decades on the craving for chocolate -- and decided emotions, social values, sensory qualities, chemicals and the hormonal cycles of women all play a role. "It's the whole package," says co-author and nutrition professor Doug Taren, Ph.D.
Of course, the swirl of clinical opinions matters little when it comes to pleasing your sweetheart. "The bottom line is that chocolate does make women feel good," Waterhouse says. "If the message -- loud and clear -- is chocolate, trust your body, let go of the guilt."
|jav| 5:30 PM|
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12/12/04
announcement
ive finally learnt how to cycle today!!yahhhooooo~ [yes. im 15. classic eg of 'huo2 dao4 lao3 xue2 dao4 lao3' XP ]
however, im sad to say that the downstairs of my body is severely aching and tender; moi will continue to lower her body before sitting for the next couple of days.
hahahahahahahaha.
who cares. the exhilaration of biking down the beach with raindrops falling and wind in your ears is simply too delicious.
i would like to thank the following:
1)dearest muddy who had invited me to go cyling with her this morning at
8. [crazy right. i was dozing on the modes of transport i took before finally reaching macs half drenched in rain with mei. the thought 'what have i gotten myself into?' didnt leave my head.]
2)my patient and encouraging sis who, well, encouraged and was patient with me when i was desperately trying to get my left leg on the paddle. [hi5-ed me as well when i started my first leg of biking. thanks**]
yay. success is very sweet indeed.
|jav| 4:52 PM|
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11/12/04
yay! pple from camp pin are back but just sent lulu to the airport to ob brunei this afternoon. she should be settling down by now. van is still sunning her ass in aust.
feel tired but strangely suffocating. cant breathe. dont know why.
update soon..
|jav| 6:07 PM|
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04/12/04
i feel like crap.
lots of bad feelings kept coming back to me these two days and all ive been feeling is..well.bad?[.]
ok,know that im not making much sense here and the gibberish i typed above did not make me feel any more enlightened,less crappy and happier so lets just leave it at that. *searches the yellow pages for a therapist*
ya know,sometimes i just look at platoonmates and myself and think that how can we actually pull up the company next year. it feels that the company gets worse with every trg, kinda makes u wonder if the stuff we're trying to do is working or not. every time i scold the part im in charged of temporarily,i feel as if ive wronged them somehow, or scold them because i was angry and could not think of anything else to do that will help them improve. god i wish they will improve. scolding is not in my nature, and as much as i would like to convince myself and pltmates that im not a softie, i hate scolding and the screaming shit. it makes me feel so..so helpless and desperate. and out of control. the pacifist at heart is speaking.
as u can tell already, i just read something i shouldnt have read. darns.
chalet will be a good time for us to discuss what we should slash could do for the company.
oh yes, before i forget,
taufik is crowned spore idol!! thot i should leave a record somewhere since it will certainly go down in spore history. [entertainment history, at least.]
hmm. the first illegal thing i did in my whole entire life of 15 yrs. noisan and i tried to sneak into a nc16 movie since we wanted to watch saw. quite sadly, we didnt manage to get the tix.brave of her tho, i almost chickened out when i saw the huge sign which says 'saw is nc 16' at the counter.
ploy no 1 : both if us pretended that we didnt know that saw is nc 16 and asked for bride and prejudice [a movie which we had agreed upon should saw fails.] ps. didnt watch b&p tho,since the theatre was packed.
not giving up,noisan dragged me to another counter further down.
ploy no. 2 : forgotten to bring our id on the presense that we're 16.
before you go on imagining that the two of us are brave rebellious pair, let me tell you that we're not. we had taken time to plan, went from the inital planting of the seed bit, the hysterical bit, to the calm and deceiving bit. ultimately ending with noisan shocked that she had actually committed such a hideous act [utterly "this is so not in my upbringing"] and i speechless when sitting down at a table to get our breaths back.
but wdv. [at this point of time you will probably think that the pair of us are losers.]
we've lived to tell the tale!!:D
let me go about my usual lament abt the movie rating system in spore anyway.isnt it amazing that the 'pple up there' can actually put an age to maturity of [young] minds and then go about rating movies according to ages? the next ironic bit is the fact that noisan cant get into a nc16 movie this year cos she's 15. however by next year,which is one mere month away,she can be sitting comfortably watching that very same movie she wanted to watch a month ago but, tragically, was too 'young' to.
|jav| 6:30 PM|
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02/12/04
lonestar -norah jones
lonestar where are you tonight
this feeling im trying to fight
it's dark and i think i will give anything
for you to shine down on me
how far you are i just dont know
the distance im willing to go
i pick up a stone that i cast to the sky
hoping for some kind of sign
it's something like 1.15am in the morning and here i am typing lyrics.anw,yes,this is the whole song.short,very sweet and touching two paragraphs of words.
the sky is maroon.cool.
argh..need to sleep..
|jav| 1:17 AM|
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