06/11/03
ok happen to know that i missed out netball carn out-din do an entry..i'll do it later with class chalet kaes..getting a bit uncomfortable.and right eye really feels swollen..
ciaos~
|jav| 4:59 AM|
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somewhere i belong.:another one of the content-less entry
im in a wallowing mood..yups.like the damn im so alone so jus let me feel oh so sorry for myself mood.tadah.haha..prolly becos sis is not at home and is currently having fun dipping strawberries in melted chocolate[yummy yum yum] at sch.fund raising today..anw.i feel sorry for myself.for feeling sorry for myself.haha.basically for being a loserish slob.yups.a slob.i noe pple say there's bound to be a hidden talent somewhere.but damn.carn seem to find it.every time i thought i found it,bang.it shuts larhs.haish.haven tried writing for a long time[the poems and stuff],no mood to do anything.im bored.and sorry for myself.haish.jus lemme humor myself can.im crapping and i noe it.
for those who have attain a new level of self-discovery and is currently enjoying ur bloody talent god has very generously given you,f off..those pple includes randall who is damn pro with his guitar,shers who has an eq of prolly 600,av who is dee one to go running to in tears[meaning she's v gd with pple too.=D],hannah who swims,is chio and plays the piano veh well..and abt 3/4 of the pple i noe has a talent.[that will mean the other 1/4 are losers like me.how very sweet.]this is my paradise.my loserish paradise and u guys prolly think im really boliaos.wait a min.i am boliao.wdv.
anw point being,i have fallen into another one of this deep pits.of pure boredom and a bit alone.ok.very alone.i miss my pltmates..i miss my old life when i was still in sec 1,when we were still in part a.so energetic and bubbly..oh mann--those were the times[faraway look in the eyes]fact is,that kind of feeling is fast disappearing..that pple no longer compromise,and if oh yah,i hate shopping so if u guys are shopping then im going home kinda thing.everything is changing.im kinda scared for tomolo..cos we're meeting tomolo and im not prepared for a platoon talk.[if we have one.]not that i want it,im not prepared..of course there are some things that badly needs thrashing out,but things cud get ugly yah?yah.right.the violent pple.haish.
upside down inside out rightside down
i want my old life back.and i dun want to grow old and wrinkly,not knowing how to smile at the world anymore due to prolong weariness,become cynical,and actually enjoy hamlet.or macbeth.the dark morbid and twisted one that is.i dun want to.it's too ugly and cruel and harsh and emotionless.
|jav| 4:57 AM|
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01/11/03
im back again..last time i came here was abt a week ago..so many many things had happened since and gess what?my second yr in rgs had officially ended yesterday..realization that im leaving the class hit me really hard..in the toilet when i started singing jus now..
sometimes goodbye tho it hurts in your heart is the only for destiny/sometimes goodbye tho it hurts is the only way now for you and me/tho it's the hardest thing to say/i'll miss your love in every way/so say goodbye/but dun you cry cos true love never dies..
jus like that.burst out sobbing..104 02/204 03..these 2 yrs had flew so quickly,sometimes i wished i have done more,provide more support to my classmates who needed it and be more there for the class..see,i have another grp of pple who is important to me..my pltmates..
all the things we did as a class..quite malu when we were in sec1 cos we'll lose every competition..but this yr due to ms wong's influence,we all kinda worked harder together..and won some of the interclass competitions..thank you ms wong..
|jav| 10:27 PM|
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